the journey.

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Friday, January 20, 2006

friends?

you know sometimes, you think of certain issues in life. well, life is pretty simple actually. wat is there much to think of? love, family, friends, goals, financial stability, education, happiness etc. yes true, life is mainly made up of these, but these are enuff to provoke deep thots.

i dunno abt you, but at times when i come across certain things, i tend to think abt them. they dun stay in my mind for long, but ya, long/short enuff to intrigue thots and to stay for 1/2 a day or so.

like i mentioned in my earlier post, i chanced upon this memory card which i had kept away for some time. (it was kept away because i bought my new sony camera and i didnt use my panasonic one anymore. different format of memory storage). it was a 8mb sd card. (who on earth uses only 8mb now? but ya la, irrelevant can.)

i can barely rem wat photos were stored inside so i inserted int my card reader. ahhh, these were pictures full of memories. my friends, the fun and the joy. but where were they now?

no no, nothing such as betrayal or arguments. but sometimes, they just slipped away as time proceeds to move on without any delay. then i think again, how can frenships be maintained?

my best fren, olivia has been in the working society since i was in sec4. despite these 6 years of different lifestyles, we do meet up and we have endless topics to talk about. we dun bitch abt which girl has done breast enhancement surgery or talk about which mascara is the latest in town. but we talk abt life. i can tell you, u can hardly find someone to open the heart up. i mean of course there are things which you wanna keep to yourself. but she is one person whom i can tell her most of the issues that i think abt. and when i tell her abt my problems, i know for sure she is not going to mock at me. before i say more, i wanna thank momo II for being there all the time too. im blessed. :)

watever it is, god has been kind to me and given me 2 frens like tt. but the thing is really, hardly u come across frens who will listen to you patiently. (there were times when we were unhappy with each other cos of the lack of time to provide the support but forgive and forget because people do make mistakes)

i dont need frens who only ask me out to go clubbing cos they NEED to meet some cute guys desperately because they just fell out of love. i dont need frens who are competing with me all the time in terms of results. i dont need friends who give me a gift back just because i bought a gift for her last xmas. i dont need friends who will only call me just because they need to modify their starhub mobile services. ultimately, i dont need friends with motives.

i like friends who take the intiative to msg me on msn and asked me how life has been for me. i like friends who sms me to say hi cos they bother to think of me and to put it into action. i appreciate friends who bother to reply my smses and apologise profusely for the late replies. i like friends who bother to make a date with me. i like friends who are willing to listen to my views on certain issues before commenting. (you know there are just some IRRITATING ass who impose their views on you before u can even complete ur sentence.) i like friends who are willing to help. and even if they are not, they reject you nicely with a valid reason. (not some dumb reasons like oh sorry i need to urm urm urm change my grandmother's diapers tonight so i cant record the show for you - does changing the diapers need the entire 1 hr? how big is ur grandmother's ass?)

friends are more than these. but these are definitely points tt i appreciate.

ever since everyone entered e various universities and polys, lives have been different. but there is one thing which i cant understand why. momo II and olivia are the 2 closest persons to me. they are both working, but we maintained close relationships so far. for momo II, we have fun playing stupid things during weekends because she has a office job while for olivia is in sales line therefore her off days are not fixed. but we meet when we have the chance. rare, but we make the effort. SO WHY CANT FRIENDS IN NUS/SMU/NUT MEET UP SINCE EVERYONE IS SCHLING AND WE SHLD BE ABLE TO RELATE TO REACH OTHER BETTER? PLUS WE END SCH ARD THE SAME TIME TOO!

i dun get it, i really dun. i have friends who are in nus too but we barely talk. (no hidden meaning, im just saying things in general.) i mean is tt so difficult? is it such a big sacrifice to take a shuttle bus to other faculities during break time? no issue for me, but why dun i see people doing it?!

sometimes, im just waiting for people to take initiative to ask me out, sometimes i do admit tt i reject invites. sometimes i do take the initiative to ask people out. it all depends. i do them for a reason. the reason, is same for everyone. just like why u ask fren A out instead of fren B out. some people are just not worth the time.

today i just wanna make a simple wish. may my friends stay close to me. im contented with these few friends whom i know will stick with me for long.

it does not matter to me whether we are in the same tutorial class, major, faculty, univerisity, workplace or watsoever. it is the thot tt counts. to meet up for superficials talk like who just got attached with whom, please leave me out. i need more than these to maintain the friendship because the friendship is abt us, not abt others. i know i know, there are just some frenships tt provide u with the superficial laughter and entertainment, but people who know me know im more than that. im sick of meeting up with people who go on telling me abt the new ipod nano or latest 9 meapixels ultra slim camera that they have newly purchased. or people who just luff at you for not putting on make up and think that you are inferior because you are not as pretty as them and you shldnt even be seen with the P.R.E.T.T.Y. G.I.R.L.S. gang.

for now, im happy with the small talks with people who care for me. take care "friends". may you have fun talking about the latest shoes in town. :D