Apologies
first of all, i would very much like to say sorry to all those that i have hurted in this period of time. be it stupid remarks that were made unknowingly, or spiteful words that were uttered with intention. i really wanna say sumtimes all these words are in the name of anger and i never meant to hurt anyone.
this semster had been a crazy one. really. i dunno how to juggle those dumb yet compulsory chem modules properly and therefore it resuted in redundant mood swings. i do ustand tt it is like a chain reaction. with my hurtful words hurled at one party, and then me feeling gulity and party feeling upset and hurt. then the gulit haunts me and i feel the pressure build up within me again.
all i wanna say is.. these are not deliberately executed. sumtimes my actions cant be explained cos i cant fathom them myself either. i know it is super duper lame to blame all my unnecessary actions on stress. stress, by no mean is a form of excuse and i shldnt be pardoned.
apologetic words like now cant help to ease the emotional scars tt i may have left on anyone. but really, im sincerely sorry.
words like these make me reflect on myself and help me better myself. i hope from today, a brand new week, a brand new morning, a brand new 20 year old me, i will change for the better. never to throw my temper in haste. well, by rite, i shldnt even be throwing my temper at anyone cos noone owes me anything. if there is anything to blame, it is me and myself. never to take anyone for granted.
you know, we often hurt our most loved ones when we are unhappy/upset/angry.
they are the ones that least deserve such treatment for us, for they love us more than anyone else.
i wan to learn how to appreciate life better.
i wan to cherish my loved ones.
fate has made it possible for us to be family/friends/lovers/schmate/accquitances/colleagues and im more than truly blessed.
pls accept my apologies.
the new 20 year old me. new resolutions and renewed determination to make everyone happier.
if you ever find me FREAKED out, leave me alone. i promise i will be soo fine after a while.
this semster had been a crazy one. really. i dunno how to juggle those dumb yet compulsory chem modules properly and therefore it resuted in redundant mood swings. i do ustand tt it is like a chain reaction. with my hurtful words hurled at one party, and then me feeling gulity and party feeling upset and hurt. then the gulit haunts me and i feel the pressure build up within me again.
all i wanna say is.. these are not deliberately executed. sumtimes my actions cant be explained cos i cant fathom them myself either. i know it is super duper lame to blame all my unnecessary actions on stress. stress, by no mean is a form of excuse and i shldnt be pardoned.
apologetic words like now cant help to ease the emotional scars tt i may have left on anyone. but really, im sincerely sorry.
words like these make me reflect on myself and help me better myself. i hope from today, a brand new week, a brand new morning, a brand new 20 year old me, i will change for the better. never to throw my temper in haste. well, by rite, i shldnt even be throwing my temper at anyone cos noone owes me anything. if there is anything to blame, it is me and myself. never to take anyone for granted.
you know, we often hurt our most loved ones when we are unhappy/upset/angry.
they are the ones that least deserve such treatment for us, for they love us more than anyone else.
i wan to learn how to appreciate life better.
i wan to cherish my loved ones.
fate has made it possible for us to be family/friends/lovers/schmate/accquitances/colleagues and im more than truly blessed.
pls accept my apologies.
the new 20 year old me. new resolutions and renewed determination to make everyone happier.
if you ever find me FREAKED out, leave me alone. i promise i will be soo fine after a while.
posted by Jo | 10:30 AM
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