ULTIMATE BOREDOM.
**edited many times because i dun wish to disclose e identity of my fren
im uber bored now and im using my company system window to type so tt i wont look suspicious. kill 2 birds with 1 stone. can do my own stuff and look reall hardworking. heh. YAY. meeting mama ltr. havent seen her for a long long time. i hope she wont be too tired cos she started work at 7am and will be ending at 3pm. well well, we'll just rest and relax at sakae sushi. but i cant spend too much, cos i havent got my pay yet. speaking of which, my dear company hasnt created my account (yesyes i mentioned tt yesterday but im still pissed and angry abt it) and so i may not be working for this week this. HELLO? i have been back in the company for 2 weeks oreadi. yet they havent got anythnig ready yet can.
but if they can let me rest at home this week, i really dun mind. heh. i can do my stuff before i sign up for alot of OTs next week and as well as first week of sch because nohting much in the first week of sch. oh yes yes, jog jog. i need to display some slim and charming models posters in my roon before i will run EVERYDAY. damn it. let's see, perhaps lydia sum? okay, i most prob wont run afterall.
and my dear company had ordered buffet for us. took lotsa photos. will load them onto my blog when im home. *pray tt i dun have to report work tmr so tt i can slp late* i had so much fun taking photos of the food and my greedy colleagues. heh. kia, dun kill me! :)
anyway this is wat i really wanna talk abt after rambling for so much. i was so bored today and i started to read my frens' blog. usually i dun do tt because 1. i dun like their writing style (not like i can write the best but ya, there are some types which i absolutely cant tolerate) 2. their lives are boring 3. they do not update and 4. im not close to them so i dun bother.
but i happened to read this fren's blog. she used to be my colleague in a previous job which im nt saying where and who because i dun wan her to be identified and also i dun wan her to know tt im talking abt her. she had recently broke up with her partner. she didnt write very well but i could feel the pain. i mean com'on, it is painful to end the r/ship when ur partner esp when u least expect it.
she had changed her blog skin to the default one. simple and clean unlike her previous blog skin which was extremely colourful. and of course the previous blog skin depicted her sweet and vibrant life when she was with her bf. but now, i guess it only reflects the need to accquire solance in her heart.
i digress. default blog skins do not mean tt there is a change in life okay. i love my plain and simple white blog skin decorated w colourful pictures because it is elegant, easy to navigate, clean and simple. it reflects my character in every sense. im by nature a very simple person who does things to add excitement in my life just like having a simple layout with colourful pictures. u get it now? ya but tt isnt the main focus. heh.
and as i read on the entries, i realised she loved/still loves her bf very much. i took the inititative and sent her a msg.
6 hrs past. no, she didnt reply. it is okay, i told myself. anyway i did my best as a fren. a distant fren. we barely kept in contact after we left the company. i dunno why. but sumtimes you know there are some frens which you feel so comfortable with and you just wanna carry on the frenship while there are some you are surely skeptical abt and u dun see the need/wan to carry on the frenship?
ya, im tt kinda person. i dun try my best to keep a frenship. i choose friends selectively. either we hit it off, or we dun. i dun pretend to pretend. yeah, u get it.
okay, these words are really random thots. they have no agenda to follow, so please pardon me. (i feel dumb saying pardon me because THIS IS MY BLOG)
but anyways LY always say i got a forgetful mind which is very very true. try making me angry and let me go to bed. i most prob wake up chirpy the next mornnig and greet u at the breakfast table. if not make it 2 days. i forget anger rather easily. and as for hatred, ermm, of course they dun get forgotten the next day. maybe 1 mth, a year, or 2 or 3 years, but they dun take decades. i refuse to let the seeds of hatred be planted into my heart because i simply dun wanna the roots to grow so deep tt i can barely remove. sumtimes im being thot of as dumb/stupid watever names u can name because i dun rem people bad points and i forgive/forget the very next day. i dun care because it makes me happy and un-bitter at the end of the day. you know, if we spend so much time hating/being angry, we could have utilise the energy and time to do something much more constructive. of course i aint no siant, i dun pray tt everyone deserves the best (bcos some people simply dun). i just wish tt nothing good will happen to them instead of praying tt something bad will happen to them.
and after tt talk with xinwen tt day, i felt enlighted. she said tt during her camp, she spoke to a priest/dulma (i dunno if e spelling is rite or wrong), the latter told xinwen tt in life, there is yin and yang. everything has its balance. once one finishes up the good luck, the bad luck roll in. one can of course extend the period of good luck by doing good deeds and charitable deeds but sumtimes bad luck will still be ard. it may be evident or invisible (invisible because the person is enjoying so much good luck tt the bad luck pales in comparison) but ya, there is still this balance. but dun forget, these people who do good deeds deserve their good luck and we shldnt pray tt bad luck will befall them. afterall, god is fair.
time to knock off. some food for thot. do think abt it. and it definitely makes ur life better. dun compare urself w others. :)
im uber bored now and im using my company system window to type so tt i wont look suspicious. kill 2 birds with 1 stone. can do my own stuff and look reall hardworking. heh. YAY. meeting mama ltr. havent seen her for a long long time. i hope she wont be too tired cos she started work at 7am and will be ending at 3pm. well well, we'll just rest and relax at sakae sushi. but i cant spend too much, cos i havent got my pay yet. speaking of which, my dear company hasnt created my account (yesyes i mentioned tt yesterday but im still pissed and angry abt it) and so i may not be working for this week this. HELLO? i have been back in the company for 2 weeks oreadi. yet they havent got anythnig ready yet can.
but if they can let me rest at home this week, i really dun mind. heh. i can do my stuff before i sign up for alot of OTs next week and as well as first week of sch because nohting much in the first week of sch. oh yes yes, jog jog. i need to display some slim and charming models posters in my roon before i will run EVERYDAY. damn it. let's see, perhaps lydia sum? okay, i most prob wont run afterall.
and my dear company had ordered buffet for us. took lotsa photos. will load them onto my blog when im home. *pray tt i dun have to report work tmr so tt i can slp late* i had so much fun taking photos of the food and my greedy colleagues. heh. kia, dun kill me! :)
anyway this is wat i really wanna talk abt after rambling for so much. i was so bored today and i started to read my frens' blog. usually i dun do tt because 1. i dun like their writing style (not like i can write the best but ya, there are some types which i absolutely cant tolerate) 2. their lives are boring 3. they do not update and 4. im not close to them so i dun bother.
but i happened to read this fren's blog. she used to be my colleague in a previous job which im nt saying where and who because i dun wan her to be identified and also i dun wan her to know tt im talking abt her. she had recently broke up with her partner. she didnt write very well but i could feel the pain. i mean com'on, it is painful to end the r/ship when ur partner esp when u least expect it.
she had changed her blog skin to the default one. simple and clean unlike her previous blog skin which was extremely colourful. and of course the previous blog skin depicted her sweet and vibrant life when she was with her bf. but now, i guess it only reflects the need to accquire solance in her heart.
i digress. default blog skins do not mean tt there is a change in life okay. i love my plain and simple white blog skin decorated w colourful pictures because it is elegant, easy to navigate, clean and simple. it reflects my character in every sense. im by nature a very simple person who does things to add excitement in my life just like having a simple layout with colourful pictures. u get it now? ya but tt isnt the main focus. heh.
and as i read on the entries, i realised she loved/still loves her bf very much. i took the inititative and sent her a msg.
6 hrs past. no, she didnt reply. it is okay, i told myself. anyway i did my best as a fren. a distant fren. we barely kept in contact after we left the company. i dunno why. but sumtimes you know there are some frens which you feel so comfortable with and you just wanna carry on the frenship while there are some you are surely skeptical abt and u dun see the need/wan to carry on the frenship?
ya, im tt kinda person. i dun try my best to keep a frenship. i choose friends selectively. either we hit it off, or we dun. i dun pretend to pretend. yeah, u get it.
okay, these words are really random thots. they have no agenda to follow, so please pardon me. (i feel dumb saying pardon me because THIS IS MY BLOG)
but anyways LY always say i got a forgetful mind which is very very true. try making me angry and let me go to bed. i most prob wake up chirpy the next mornnig and greet u at the breakfast table. if not make it 2 days. i forget anger rather easily. and as for hatred, ermm, of course they dun get forgotten the next day. maybe 1 mth, a year, or 2 or 3 years, but they dun take decades. i refuse to let the seeds of hatred be planted into my heart because i simply dun wanna the roots to grow so deep tt i can barely remove. sumtimes im being thot of as dumb/stupid watever names u can name because i dun rem people bad points and i forgive/forget the very next day. i dun care because it makes me happy and un-bitter at the end of the day. you know, if we spend so much time hating/being angry, we could have utilise the energy and time to do something much more constructive. of course i aint no siant, i dun pray tt everyone deserves the best (bcos some people simply dun). i just wish tt nothing good will happen to them instead of praying tt something bad will happen to them.
and after tt talk with xinwen tt day, i felt enlighted. she said tt during her camp, she spoke to a priest/dulma (i dunno if e spelling is rite or wrong), the latter told xinwen tt in life, there is yin and yang. everything has its balance. once one finishes up the good luck, the bad luck roll in. one can of course extend the period of good luck by doing good deeds and charitable deeds but sumtimes bad luck will still be ard. it may be evident or invisible (invisible because the person is enjoying so much good luck tt the bad luck pales in comparison) but ya, there is still this balance. but dun forget, these people who do good deeds deserve their good luck and we shldnt pray tt bad luck will befall them. afterall, god is fair.
time to knock off. some food for thot. do think abt it. and it definitely makes ur life better. dun compare urself w others. :)
posted by Jo | 2:13 PM
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